dont know whats with me.
just have the urge to blog.
feeling terrible.
hah.just came back from work.
feeling tired, and upset.
in addition to the terrible day.
im missing him, again.
work's nonetheless bad.
freaking tired lahs.
i wanna sleep all day. haha.
beginning of work was bad.
seriously terribly bad.
the customers were like...
WOW. many many of them.
till after 8pm.. it was better.
just a little lah. hah.
so after a long and hectic day..
i finally went off at 11pm.
knowing that im working on..
sunday 1500 hours;
tuesday 1400 hours, and
thursday 1630 hours..
weekends' unsure. sadded =x
im sooooo glad monday's free.
got one audition&one interview.
audition from kids central drama.
and interview by Create Talents.
interview for face&magazine model.
im gonna be the guinea pig first.
jashawn ask me to see how's the interview.
tell him, then he go. lol.
that ass. hahaha.
shall update the outcomes. hah =)
and damn.
interview as waitress was a bummer.
the damn idiotic bitch's a big trouble.
just bcos i think i dyed my hair,
she bluffed STUPIDLY that they aint hiring.
i got that thought because...
no one working had colored hair. hah.
have yet to go down to escape theme park.
i wonder if they'd accept me. worrying*
if they dont, ive big big problem.
very big one indeed. ARGHS.
work's driving me crazy~
by the way...
my mommy helped me dye hair AGAIN.
yesterday was aiai who did the dying.
and certainly, this outcome was better.
and the color was much better.
some copper brown or something.
shannie and lynnie thought it was nice.
work place people thought it was nice.
and i myself liked it loads too =)
thanks mommy!! love ya =)
hmmm. got nothing much to say..
but seriously felt better.
after chatting with huahan.
thanks buddy =)
cos we chat about family matters.
and manage to get that off for awhile.
feeling much better.. haha.
but still, if he could be here for me..
things should be much better...
cos i'd feel much happier~
i ever thought giving up on him..
but as you guys know..
i love him..
and its difficult to say goodbye.
perhaps i would, one day.
maybe one day..
when i meet a better guy..
i will try to forget him~
but until that day comes...
i wonder what i'd be.
sigh.okays okays.
enough enough man.
shant say so much. haha.
well, think gonna end here.
perhaps facial in the morning.
cos monday's an important day.
and ive to work at 1500 hours.
till 1930 if im not wrong..
well. guess its enough.
its soooo much of things man. lol.
just hope i'll see him soon, one day.
bwahahas..
alrights. take care all..
have an early night =)
knowing i shouldnt. but still..im missing you, like a fool.
its been some time since ive blog.
school ended officially ytd.
finally, after so long...
got back the finalised results.
got 27th in class.
and 35th the whole level.
i was happy about that...
but am disappointed afterall.
for my ems, its fugging disappointing.
i wonder if i still can get into e4.
if i cant, i'd appeal.
and if appealing doesnt work...
i'd go jump and end my life. LOL.
im serious about that though..one thing, the sch's fugging biased.
and the teachers are contradicting.
they said those in e5 or e4 last year..
still failed terribly for their a-math.
and because this year..
our math standard aint good enough.
she's gonna close down a-math.
and offer DnT instead for e3.
and you need at least 55 to get into e4.
which meant that, i cant.
cos i got a freaking 51.
due to mid yr when i got 38.
which further pulled down my 56.
which afterall, its fugging unfair, to me.
i'd be an art student if i get into e4.
and my humans didnt fail me.
neither did my language, nor my sci.
i got a1 for both humanities.
a2 for chi and sci. and high b3 for el.
its only my math.
so what right do they have??
have to throw me outta e4?
i could fugging work harder for math.
cant i? gosh. im fugging pissed.
apart from that.
the past few days were shit.
not really actually.
wednesday had rock climbing.
saw 2 cute guys.
one from TP, and the other from NS.
chatted, talked and crapped.
gonna see them next year...
for the darn sec3 adventure camp.
then had no school on thursday.
jashawn asked me out.
cos it was cun's birthday.
so went along lahs.
cos i was jas' "girlfriend". LOL.headed to cp, then to town.
with jashawn, jerry, xinru&partner.
then met cun at orchard.
headed to far east.
got scouted by create talents.
together with jashawn.
left my no. with that manager sth.
then wenta see Bape again. lol.
then weiming came along later.
wenta hans. chit chatted.
left for movie at lido.
but cant find nice movies.
same goes for cineleisure.
walked to ps then.
no movie, plus a looooong queue.
then wenta watch the guys KoF.
went for dinner and headed back.
wenta jerry's home reluctantly.
haa.anime-d. watch 40 year old virgin.
listen to the guys' bitchings&plans.
xinru&chris&lester came later.
chit chatted. then went home at 5am.
bathed, changed.
then wenta meet the guys again.
slackked, chitchatted. felt sleepy.
then headed to school reluctantly. hah.
wenta school feeling darn tired.
fell asleep several times.
when the principal made......
crappy talks & scolded us.
listened to lotsa craps..
and the ceremony began finally.
watched jashawn collected his HOD.
saw that asss' happy&satisfied face.
then felt all upset after the break.
about that damn e4 matter.
then wenta class and slept.
till school ended.
went home with aiai.
she bought hair dye.
and came to my house and dye.
her outcome was kinda loud.
but nevertheless, kinda nice.
and mine was great.
so i had my hair dyed. LOL.she left at around 4pm.
then i headed home, bathed.
and drop dead.
so i slept from 4plus in the noon.
till JUST, 840am. bwahahs.
more than 12 hours of sleep.
nonetheless, got woken up.
by several people.
first, aiai's message.
jeslyn's message.
and finally, toshi's call.
asking me to go for drama's audition.
for the freaking KidsCentral -.-!!
told my mommy.and she asked me to go!!! awwww~shall seeeee how lahs.. hahas =x
gonna go work later.
in the evening... so tired.
and i actually dread going. hah.
but am leaving house earlier later.
in the early afternoon.
gonna go interviews.
as either a waitress or at escape.
hope i'd get into either one. haha.
then im soooo gonna work my ass off.
and earn lots for this holidays =)
alrights.
a long enough entry.
gonna go then.
take care all.
and enjoy the holidays =D
he's missed <3
him, and more him.
got back raw results.
not the finalised one though.
four A1s, four A2s.
one b4 and one c5.
hope the finalised one...
would be better =)
am kinda satisfied overall.
however, im sure,
it can be improved~
well........
the school's fugged up.
finalised results 've to wait.
wait till 7th november. irritating*
but anyways, God Bless ^^
school's on tomorrow.
doing some dumbie CIP.
going down to pasir ris park.
not for picnic, but to pick LITTERS.
yes, how irritating.
then having rock climbing on wed.
aint gonna participate.
all lame and corny.
gonna tell teacher im sick.
i am anyways, laughoutlouds.no school on thursday.
some damn ceremony on friday.
and there goes the school term.
the year ends, there.
anticipating =D
school ends, work starts.
double irritating.
cant stand it.
i havent like going out.
for the past close to 2 months.
dont know whats wrong too.
all i wanted~
is to stay at home and nua.
watch vcds and rot.
hahas, NO MOOD man.
but if i can drink,
i wont mind going out.. HAH.
alrights.
i dont know whats on my mind.
just that, i know..
i miss him.
and.
i wanna go DAVID TAO's concert!!
bwahahahas =PpPp
okays. shant play around.
its kinda long entry.
guess gonna end here.
and save some energy.
chiong-ing vcds tonight...
take care all =)
ive been wanting to see him.
but i know, ive to control myself.
cos ive to learn, to get over it..
big sigh, double sighs.
come back baby please..cos we belong together~i miss you, darling <3
home.
i miss him.
i dont know whats with me.
i miss him so much.
so much, that i feel that its..
scary, terrible, and it hurts.
i seriously need a drink.
two, three, four or five.
enough to get me drunk.
i dont wanna be sober.
i wanna get drunk.
be unconscious;
and remembers nothing.
i wanna get drunk.im feeling all pain and hurt.broken hearted -still, i miss him <3
a boring friday.
didnt go out, at all.
guaii eh? LOLS.
didnt went out ytd too.
i was feeling too lazy.
and the girls were like..
oh~ all messed up.
one was like..
cant be bothered.
the other was like..
out at plaza singapura?!?
so i didnt bothered.
and watched my vcds!!!
cheerios =D
finished all 22 episodes.
in 3 days =D
am darn satisfied.
WITH THE SHOW.
hahaha. damn nice man.
gosh!! korea shows rock ass.
My 19 Year Old Sis-in-Law.
i give it 10 stars outta 10!!
it seriously rock man.
the storyline is GREAT.
saddening, empathising, funny.
touching, love, family, friends.
its a show that makes one...
cry, laugh, understand.
a show not to be missed =D
i think im insane.
im in love with korea stuff.
korean serials..
korea actors..
korea actresses..
the shows are good;
the actors are handsome&cute;
the actresses are pretty&funny.
first was Full House.
then came Stairway to Heaven.
now, My 19 yr old sis-in-law.
i was mesmerised by Rain&SongHuiQiao.
then that CheChengJun&HanJingShu.
and now, MinZhe,ShengZhe&HuiYuan.
gosh, they are totally awesome!!
but but but..
i realised something.
korea serials are about the same.
their love stories, their backgrounds.
all about the same.
all characters are cute and funny.
but anyways.
they still rock ass alright!! hahas.
wonder whats next.
taiwan serials are getting a lil boring.
japanese ones are kinda boring.
maybe some hongkongs or koreas.
funny, touching, GREAT storylines.
alright alrights.
enough about korea thingy.
im a little outta control. LOL.
will be going out tomorrow.
with that 2 sotongs.
going to town.
needa go down to UAN.
collect my portfolio&comcard.
and watching some fashio show.
then perhaps take a walk around.
ahhhhhh~ aint in the mood.
dont know why. hahas.
am feeling dead and lazy.
im insane. HAHA.
perhaps i need a drink or two.
or a talk instead, i guess. hah.
or do i need him?
hahas.. i dont know~
alrights.
guess i gotta go.
havent been feeling good.
felt being torn-apart & upset.
alrights.
wanna rewatch the ending.
of that korea show. hahas.
i'll be happier that way, i guess.
hahas. take care all =)
"i wont keep someone; who doesnt love me; by my side..."not by me, but by the show.thinking; i needa be drunk.
exams ended.
officially, finally.
aint happy though. hah.
shannie came to my place ytd.
watched My 19 years old sis-in-law.
darn funny can.
but it was kinda saddening too.
have yet to complete watching.
alrights. then went out around 4.
headed to city hall first.
went to the damn adidas.
wanted to get my bag.
but there isnt any. how sad.
so gave up hope on that bag.
and headed towards town area.
wenta far east first.
bought a denim 3quarts.
and a lacy spag.
shannie bought jeans & top.
then walked around.
wenta Haju scene. hair profile.
asked around about hair prices.
then walked to heeren.
wenta Kai. bought a skirt there.
like it lots =)
walked around. wenta Toni&Guy.
checked pricing for hair.
then wenta cine.
wenta supercuts for hair prices.
then walked around.
saw some school asses.
so i spent more than bdae girl in e end. lol.then around 10 to 10plus.
headed to Black.
thought i couldnt get in at first.
but managed to anyways =x
cos its been ages since im there.
guess its been half a yr or so.
it was darn funny.
sat down, had a drink. talk.
laughed our asses off.
then went off 'round 11 odd.
got the last train home anyway.
then called that guy.
got my absolut vodka 1L finally.
at 40 bucks. cheap.
but can get cheaper though.
headed home after that.
bathed, and got pissed.
with my damn dad. useless.
then drop dead.
was darn tired. HAHA.
am going down to pasir ris.
at about 3. arghs.
the darn sun is so big lohs.meeting up with jes&shannie.
dont know where we'll be going.
wander aimlessly. LOLS.
and yah. i owe them pressies.
jes' birthday's on 12 oct.
and shannie, yesterday.
im damn broke. LOLS.
by the way.
something lame happened.
am darn pissed by it.
super nonsensical.
bunch of imbeciles.
how irritating.
am damn tired.
but am gonna watch vcds.
and meet the girls later. lols.
bye guys.
he's missed by me.the unforgotten love.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNIE!!exams ended.
not officially though.
still 've art&cme tmr.
but still;
feel as though exams' ended.
CHEERIOS~!!!
but sad enough.
i dont feel any bit of happiness.
not even a bit.
hahaha. how sad.
alrights.
meeting up with shannie later.
perhaps at about 3 or 4.
heading to the city&town.
gonna get my stuff.
and she's gonna do shopping!!
how envious!! cos im broke. LOL.
not very though =x
well. while waiting..
shall go watch vcds!!
new ones. korean ones.
my 19 year old sis-in-law~
LOLS. guess gonna be funny..
so well, take care all.
and enjoy =)
bad. real bad.im missing him <3
life, love and death.
you said...
it was impossible for us
to be together again..
but if i were to tell you..
i have only a year
or less than two, to live..
would you love me?
are you willing to love me?
will you accompany me...
to walk through
these last few years?
will you?
if i have a wish,
which would
definitely be granted..
i would wish for,
us to be together..
even if my life
would be shortened
by 30, 40 or 50 years..
or die in the next 3 years.
im willing, im serious.
im willing to exchange
my life, for your love.
im not silly.
because i know
your love is all i need.
i miss you alot;i want you back..even if it costs my life~
love.
the days we've spent tgt..
the happy times i had with you.
the bad times we've overcame tgt.
the days you cheered me up..
the nights we've spent tgt..
the mornings you woke up early;
to send me to school on my bday.
the times you skipped work,
the times i skipped school;
just to spend time together..
the times we scrimped for movies.
the times we were demented..
the times we got jealous of the opp. sex..
the silly times we felt insecure..
the times we quarrel,
kiss and make up the next moment.
the times we cant bear to be apart.
the times we kissed for so long..
the times we hugged for so long..
the times you sneak me into your house..
the times i slept in your arms..
the times we laugh together..
and the times we cry together...
all those times, i cant forget.
its been half a year,
since we've parted.
and i havent forgotten you..
it seems so difficult,
difficult to forget you..
and why is it so?
as day passes by,
as hours fly past..
im losing control over myself.
the urge of me looking for you,
is getting stronger by the day..
i shouldnt have met you that night.
i shouldnt have allowed myself,
allowed myself to see you.
and now that i cant help it myself..
who else can i blame?
no one else, but me myself.
the more i think about you..
the more i cant wait for 2 years to pass.
the more i wanna look for you..
the more pain i feel..
cos whenever i look for you..
you seem so cold to me..
as though i do not matter to you..
and whenever you look for me...
you seem as if you needed me back..
and i gave in as my feelings' still there.
why is love so unfair?
why is life so unfair?
why cant i have what i need..
i dont just wanna have you..
cos i know i need you...
the days when i lost you...
it was almost impossible..
impossibe for me to carry on with life.
many assured me you'll be back..
but without you telling me that..
i cant be assured, i cant be at ease..
ive tried to forget you.
but time and time again..
i only managed to forget you for awhile.
time and time again..
you tell me different things.
first, you told me,
you'll give me another chance.
next, you asked me,
ask me to forget you..
then, you made me a pact,
the two years pact~
what am i to do?
im all confused and heartpain.
i dont know which to heed.
it seems like you're unsure.
and it really seem that...
we can never be back tgt anymore.
i dont wanna put too much hope..
too much hope on the impossibles.
cos i dont wanna be hurting myself..
with the thoughts i created myself...
lying to myself saying you'll be back,
one day..
and that one day never comes..
im scared..
im really very scared..
baby... will you ever come back to me?
counting down to less than 9 hours,
to the very first paper.
sincerely praying and wishing..
my last wishes,
and my last prayers through the blog.
GOOD LUCK to ALL =)
do your best;and you've got nothing to regret.God will be there for us ^^ amen.still, i miss him. LOADS <3
my love.
called him yesterday.
talked for awhile.
he said im silly.
should have just called him.
didnt have to think so much.
hahas. how silly i am ehs?
he cheered me up a little.
and seriously...
if you were to ask me,
why i love him so..
thats because...
he understands me, unlike others.
he know why im upset, why im panicky.
even when i dont tell him why.
he understands everything;
even without me saying.
he can cheer me up;
regardless of what situation we're in.
thats why i love him..
and i dont ever wanna give up on him..
i love him.
and for him;
i wanna bring out the best in me =)
God Bless.....
for his&my love.
God Bless.....
we'll be back together.
God Bless.....
we'll have an everlasting love~
and last but not least...
God Bless for the upcoming exams.
in Jesus' name i pray, amen*baby i love you;and i'll never stop loving you.this, i promise you <3
its been close to a week~
and my flu's still around.
cough came along..
and slight fever too~
what the heck man!!!
felt as though ive sinned ytd.
cos i worked. im suppose to study.
exams are sooooo close. BIG SIGH.
well, worked morning shift. 8am to 1pm.
arghs~ it was a bummer man!!
being blamed for not knowing things.
cmon, i work for the night shift okay~
ive never worked in the morn before.
im already sick...
and was asked to extend shift.
end up felt like throwing up..
so irene let me off earlier.
headed to white sands.
bought my lenses.
hung around then went home.
jes and shannie just headed home..
from my place..
supposedly to study.. but~
ended up watching shows -.-!!
im feeling sick. and tired.
wanted to sleep, but cant fall asleep.
wanted to study, but cant concentrate.
big big big big big, SIGH!!
gonna 've problems if i aint gonna study.
help me please, someone~ haha.
having lang P2, math P1 & lit this week.
sigh sigh sigh. not worried for anything..
but math. my math my math~
im afraid tuition aint gonna help.
im afraid all the practice wont help.
cos i always
freakout when i take math pp.
God Bless me hard man~ hahaha.
aiights. school's on tmr.
am left with only 2 days to clarify doubts.
after that, all i can depend on is myself.
really hope my hardwork will pay off..
not only mine, but everyone's.
its okays if i dont get into e5.
e4 is enough. really.
but i just wanna see improvement.
especially for my math...
my dad worked hard to pay off debts..
and to pay for my tuition fees.
and i do my part to study&practice hard.
stress' building up in me gradually..
everyday i'll feel the stress&pressure..
losing sleep every night..
perhaps its due to the afternoon naps.
i dont know.. but am worried.
worried my performance will be affected.
am really feeling all tensed up&worried..
sighs*and apart from studies..
have been having terrible nightmares..
that scared me to tears in the midnight.
got woken up by them..
resulting in the loss of sleep.. terrible.
several times i needed to talk.
but dont know who to look for..
seems like no one's really there..
wanted to call him, but afraid i'll disturb.
wanted to message him;
but im afraid of hearing nasty things.
afterall, things dont always go our way..
the world's unfair~
well. shant talked too much about him.
have been missing him..
badly.which is not a really good thing for now..
it affects everything. hah.
alrights. gonna go then.
wasted my afternoon time.
gonna start mugging when its time.
guess im kinda adapt to my study time.
afternoon's for sleeping..evening is for relaxing..and the night from 830 onwards; is for studying. hahas.
for 2 weeks im doing this..
everyday.LaughOutLouds!! hardworking ass.
slackking in the day;
mugging in the night. haas.
but i believe once the exams' over..
i'll be a free little woman.
start being crazy all over again =)
this' getting a little too lengthy.
shall update soon~
take care guys!!
counting down to the end of EOY.anticipating the holidays =Pall in all.. 3 words at the end of everyday.i miss him <3
finally found some time to blog.
was busy mugging the past week.
real busy. sighs.
school was like shit the past week.
all craps and nonsense.
a total waste of my time.
had tuition on monday.
absent myself on tuesday.
the other days were as usual.
came home and mug everyday.
every single day.
exams nearing, study hard all.
am working tomorrow.
the damn morning shift. 8 to 1230.
and gonna study after work.
nowhere else, but home.
aiights. am gonna sleep now.
gonna study later in the evening.
shall update when i can find the time.
prolly next week. or the weekends.
or prolly after the exams.
i dont know. am stressed out. sighs.
take care all.
and im missing my beau.
why am i still missing you?and missing you so badly..i hate myself for missing you.cos im afraid i'll call you.i dont wanna be disturbing you.i dont wanna be your burden now.im praying hard for God to help me..cos im afraid i'll lose control one day.i still love you and you know that.i shall say no more, cos..all i feel is nothing but heartaches`memories of you & me <3
stupid blogger's down.
so gotta blog here (notepad).
to satisfy my urge of blogging.
laugh my fats out!!!
hmmm. something funny.
blogged said im home last night.
but its was about an hour..
that i went out again.
at around 1230 in the midnight.
i know im insane. hah.
he called me, i didnt hear.
he messaged me and so i was shocked.
gave him a call back.
talked awhile. heard his complaints.
he took a cab down to punggol.
so i went down to meet him.
spent the night with him.
accompanied him.
he said he wanted to message me last week.
but because i didnt..
he thought i had a new boyfriend.
and didnt wanna bother me.
i told him i wanted to message him too.
but remembered his words..
so left him undisturbed.
and told him i didnt have one.
and asked him if he have one.
both of us, still like the past.
single but unavailable. hah.
chatted the whole night.
about his job, ns and everything.
about me, my studies and everything.
spent the night watching stars.
spent the night cuddling.
i wont deny it feels kinda weird.
but ive been longing to be hugged.
by him...
it was around 5 in the morning..
he sent me home.
and think he took a cab back home.
before we part..
gave him the picture card thingy i made.
he liked it loads he said.
and he looked happy seeing it too~
am glad, very very glad.
he told me he'll take me out again.
for a movie when he's free.
and i told him i'll be looking forward to it.
and lastly, he said sth that made me very happy.
he didnt forget the pact.
he said he'll not forget it.
i hope he'll always remember it..
from now, until 2 years later..
and then, i went to sleep...
feeling all sweet and loved =)
thats all.
though i hate to see the day ends.
though i hate to see him leave again.
but im really happy and satisfied.
im glad at least he didnt forget me..
at least im still remembered by him..
and at least, he'll look for me when i dont.
lastly, i wanna say...
thank you baby, i love you <3
missing you;waiting for you <3
a start of a new month.
a change in me? hah.
lots said that ive changed.
even my momma.
they said. they've never seen me mugging so hard before. my momma said the same thing. she also said... its the first time she dont see me complaining about being at home. first time she see me studying the whole day and night at home without complaining. and all ive been doing is studying, sleeping, eating and a little slackking.. can you actually believe that? its coming from Vivian. hahas. sick. i must be sick in the brains, mentally insane~!! haha.
just finish chatting with lex on msn. he said the same. and couldnt believe it when i told him i kinda dread going out nowadays. hahas. but well. perhaps, its for now only? its hard to say. maybe a Vivian without Johan, without really much friends is a Vivian like this? hahas. am thinking after the exams, what am i gonna do to keep myself this busy? i cant be studying, can i? hahas. guess im gonna pick up more jobs if i can find. and keep myself real busy.. am really afraid once the exams are over.. for once, im kinda glad that exams are here..
alrights. aint gonna say much.
12 more days to language paper2.
time for mugging.
and more mugging, perhaps.
hahas. take care all..
will update asap~
byebye.
though ive put you aside..but its just for the time being.im afraid to think of you..cos im afraid i'll look for you.i know you need your time..and i dont wanna be disturbing you.but still, baby, i gotta tell you..you'll never be forgotten;i miss you <3
am damn shagged.
was out whole day.
didnt study.
ive terribly sinned.
was out with the guys.
jerry, kelvin, lester n chris.
met jerry and kelvin at mall.
for lunch actually.
ended up going town with them.
walked the whole fugging day.
am damn tired.
my legs nearly break. LOLS.
but i managed to buy something afterall.
bought a top from Kai.
one and only piece. how great? hah.
the guys were damn entertaining.
they were insane lahs. haas.
the day was fine.
but everything turned bad..
when lester left for work.
kor wasnt in sucha good mood. sigh.
am worried for him lahs.
so the 4 of us wenta heartland mall.
ate dinner, walk around.
took 82 together. saw jiahao&richard.
then kelvin dropped and went home.
chris and me wenta jerry's house.
sat around then chris sent me off.
got home, bathed.
chatted with them online.
and now, im feeling damn tired.
should be turning in soon.
my legs are wobbly. hahas.
okays lahs. i go wash up.
then go sleep le.
needa study tmr de lehs. hahas.
good night all. take care~
im waiting for you,waiting for you kiss me at the night.baby, i miss you <3
am home already.
had language paper 1.
overall, its okay.
aint easy, neither difficult.
kinda satisfied with myself =)
a week more to go for other papers.
scared ill freak out when math come.
cos my math aint good. haha.
and, im gonna do something bout it.
which is to study. LOLS.
lots say that im insane.
cos i say im gonna study today.
gosh, its so close to exams.
all ive to do is to mug for a week more.
then when the exams begin...
ill read up the notes ive made.
and after which,
we'll be getting back our papers.
for checking.
and i really really hope that...
our hardwork these weeks will pay off.
i dont need 9As.
cos i know where i stand exactly..
as long as i get what i want..
i'll be contented =)
God Bless~dont know what has gotten into me.
i managed to put him off my mind,
for a few days..
not completely though...
but suddenly, im missing him again.
thinking about him when i shouldnt.
sigh, God help me please..
the Guardians of Love, help me~
i dont wanna be thinking of things.
i just wanna concentrate on studying.
ive to focus, focus, focus.
prioritising should be done.
ive to sit down for some quiet reflection.
well, off for lunch.
then perhaps a rest.
wake up and start mugging!!
or head straight for studying.
and rest later.
either ways lahs. hahas..
and suddenly...
i feel that studying isnt that bad afterall!
im really weird. LOLS.
well, take care all~
have a good rest..
and study hard!!
missing you badly.keeping you somewhere;deep down in my heart <3
